Wow Dawn, you are a very prolific writer! You may write a lot, but it is very clear and easy to follow. Congrats on the novel competition…in my next life I want to be able to write and sing (2 things that I always admire in others that I simply don’t have the talent for). I do think that joining some type of group would be esp. helpful for you. Not only a chance to meet others with a common interest, but you can bounce ideas off of them and make friends. Having other outlets would give you an option to limit your contact with your somewhat toxic friend…cause you will just be too busy. I would not cut ties with friend, but when you get stronger and in a better place, I think boundaries are necessary. I “love” people like that that bend “the rules” when the circumstances in their lives require it. She sounds a bit delusional, maybe this is the guy from her dream when she was a kid…but it was a dream not a path to follow.
So you don’t know for certain that H has medical coverage at this time? It sounds like he is at least telling you that he doesn’t have coverage…which is very likely if he is an independent contractor. I know that you have a fairly successful calligraphy business, is there any chance that you could look outside the home for employment…something that would give you benefits and almost more importantly get you out of the house and into the world. You really seem to be doing well, and I think getting out and GAL can only help your mental attitude. Does the state that you live in have spousal support/alimony? If not, you will need another source of income at some point if H decides to D.
Do you get regular exercise? I know for me getting out and walking or some type of exercise is always so good for my mental outlook…no matter how badly I don’t want to get out and do it, I always feel better afterwards.
Hang in there Dawn! I really “hear” the light coming through in your posts!
