WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 10

[confusedinpa]

It was a good of a day as it could have been for me in my situation.

After church, I did some shopping to replenish consumables (i.e. cereal, tissues, soap, etc.). Then I changed the oil on my truck and mowed the grass. After I also did some laundry.

At 2PM, she sent me a text with a picture of my 3 year old playing dress up as Bob the Builder I had gotten done with the yard work so I sent her a reply (about 25 minutes later) thanking her for the picture and asking her how she felt.

She replied back about 2 hours later that she was tired, but her stomach was feeling better so she thinks she can finally eat a normal meal for dinner. Then she asked how I was and what I did today.

I replied back with a very positive and upbeat message of how it was a beautiful day today and I hoped that she was able to enjoy it and at that moment I was thinking about what to do for dinner.

She told me that she didn't feel good enough to be outside with the boys (I thought big bummer for the boys to be cooped up in an apartment on a day like today) but had the windows open since it was so breezy out. She told me my 7 year old was playing on the computer and my 3 year old was working on building the fire truck project. Then she said that they were thinking about getting pizza for dinner

I got a little annoyed with that as last weekend, my 3 year old asked her if he could bring it home so he could build it with me. She had said yes although several weeks ago, when he had asked, she said no. I thought she was easing up a bit, but now I feel that she never was going to let him bring it home. It's pretty much true to form, that she never lets them bring anything back.

It was ironic as this morning when she picked them up, the boys asked if they could take a couple of things with them. I told them of course so they did.

Anyway, I replied back saying it was too bad she didn't feel up to getting ouside as it was really nice out as I was reading a newspaper out on the patio and relaxing with a beer. I then said that pizza sounded like a good idea for me as well as it always goes good with beer. I also asked for her to send me pictures of the boys building the firetruck project (which she did).

She called me about 45 minutes later with a tactical question and then told me about how much pizza they had left over. I told her that I still hadn't decided on dinner yet (it was almost 7PM) so I should get going on that before it got too late. She asked if I wanted to go over to pick some up as she had so much left over. I said sure.

I went over and picked it up. My 3 year old showed me the fire truck that he had built and my 7 year old just gave me a big hug and kiss. I chatted with them at the door for a bit before I left. I said good nite and told them that they can call me again to say goodnite if they wanted to (which would have been in about 25 minutes). My 3 year old said he wanted to. When I left, I heard my 3 year old calling to say he wanted to come home with me. It really made me sad.

So I got home and ate the pizza while I talked on the phone with some of my relatives. They didn't call to say good nite and I was tempted to call, but figure that I did see them just 25 minutes ago so I didn't call either.

So right now, I'm not sure if it's the 4 beers I've had or what, but I'm feelign ok. I'm a little down, but I'm not a wreck like I was on Father's day.....