Yeah...I see what you're writing about what else is going on. But you mentioned that you were afraid, and didn't know how to arm yourself for confrontation and detatchment. Coach says that 'loving yourself' is the armor that you need for confrontation and detatchment...and you need not be afraid if genuinely armed with it! You can't be hurt if you're not afraid! I know you have a lot on your plate, and your situation is unique to you...and you're the one actually there dealing with it. But, we're pulling for you aliveandkicking, and I think you have the strength and fortitude necessary to be successful at this...and 'this' has to be determined by you.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.