I just got home, H will probably be home with DD in about half an hour. I feel so sad that I missed her first time swimming. I feel sad that one of us will always miss all of these firsts.
Last night I found a note he had written me after we had a big fight when we'd only been dating a couple of years. It made me cry because I'm so angry that that person is gone.
I think I'm going to try to get in to see the MC by myself this week and talk over some of the things that are on my mind, since I don't feel comfortable bringing them up to H.
