total quarter life mlc

[mdoodles]

having a busy weekend, which is always a good thing...

when the sun is shining things always feel better, dont they?

i hope this sunny weather lasts, its been so rainy here in ny and i swear, it has a major effect on my mood.

i dont know if i posted the events of friday evening, but it took a turn in my favor, i gained some confidence that was needed...h was following me around the house, doing things only a husband should do in front of his wife..

then he came in our room and said, im leaving. so i said, ok..

normally he is looking for attention, looking for me to touch him, hug him, tell him not to go. i just said, ok.

well it caught him off guard. he did not leave. continued to linger. continued to look at me, make excuses to be in our room while i was there.

2 more times said, im going. i said, ok...i was nice, but didnt give in.

finally he left.... 20 minutes later, guess who called?

yup, he needed to tell me something...lol

he was so thrown by me, so thrown by me not texting or calling him after he left...

i gained some control, it really gave me confidence, i didnt feel as lost when he left, didnt feel as bad, if this makes sense.

and not being home when he called last night was great!!

i miss him, i really truly do but im doing ok.

i waiver between my woman scorned mood and the letting go, whatever happens mood.

maybe there is a happy medium somewhere in there...