I just caught up with all that's been going on. Sweetie, I know you hurt, I know you're angry. I get that after Monday it may be over for you. I just want to remind you that you get to decide that, not a judge and not a piece of paper.
I know that moving on is tough. I'd like to tell you that I've managed it beautifully. I'd like to say that, but it isn't always true. My H and I are not D, he moved out 15 mo. ago (the bomb was dropped 15 mo. before that). He still comes to the house to visit D's and we are starting C for the purpose of raising D's and communication in general. Bottom line, I just haven't decided it's over for me. Is it for him? probably, but that doesn't matter to me. What does matter is how we raise our D's and the woman I've become through all this.
As I'm sure you can guess, my name is not Grace. What we think is what we feel and what we become. Me? I strive for grace, some days I even get there. You haven't yet (IMO) hit your stride with all of this. How could you? It all came on so fast.
Just an idle thought (which doesn't mean anything), but could he have said mean and hurtful things to you b/c it's easier for him if you are angry with him?
This doesn't have to be the last time you come here, regardless of how it all goes Monday. In fact, I would say it might be good to come here and vent and even just hang out for awhile.
