Where am I? How long will it last?

[needinghope]

Thanks Antlers. I'm trying, but today I'm wondering what he's doing? I'm constantly checking my phone and email, looking for signs of him. I know this is the worst thing to do, but last night around midnight I gave into my suspicions and drove past his house. He wasn't there and now I am sick worrying about where he was and who he was with. Plus, I'm mad at myself for doing that and hate what it says about me. So right now, I'm trying to get motivated to make coffee and read, then maybe work out. Yet, half my brain is constantly preoccupied.

Thanks everyone for your replies. When my H does contact me, it's good to know that you guys do.