Well the past few days have been good. Church was so wonderful. I was feeling pretty good about life THEN I woke up this morning and my whole day was a mess...well most of it. I should have expected the devil to rear his angry head. I rebuked him and trudged onward. Nevertheless I delt with a few things. I was leaving for work and I decided to let my son drop me off so he could use my car to get himself something to eat. He has been doing what I asked so I thought well I never leave him a car, so maybe I will leave it for him today. First of all he begins by saying guess what mom...of course I say what?...dad and gf won a fishing tournament last night. He started going into details about how much they won and yada yada yada. First time I heard of my xh fishing other than the one other time. Anyway, I just let my son talk. I didnt want to NOT let him speak about his dad, even if it included gf. He was excited about the story and said he wish he would have went with dad when he asked him first. I went onto work and got out...1 min. late! I then continued with my day, trying to smile and be in a good mood, regardless of the "wonderful story" I got from son. (sorry to sound bitter). I got through a few fews when a "young" employee that works with me, decided she didnt like what I said and we ended up in the Mgrs. office. No big deal, just something else to SMILE about. Then comes lunch time and I call my son to ask him to bring me something to work and he says he cant talk he is with his dad and gf at gf's family cookout. I am thinking that I hope he is not in MY CAR at her familys house. (I know bitter again). Anyway son's phone wouldnt connect so I didnt get to ask where MY CAR was. Later, at time for son to pick me up, he calls and says...
Son: "Mom can you get a ride home" Me: "Why?" Son: "Can you?" (asking again) Me: "Who is with you?" Son: "I am with dad", "can you get a ride" Me: "Where is my car?" Son: "It is home, I can drop it off out front if I have too" (sounding like it is a conveinence). I am spending the night with dad tonight and watching the race with him on tv tomorrow. Me: "Well, I need my car here" Son: "Do I have too?", "I need to know now",(dad or gf mumbles in background) Me: "I said, forget it, I will get a ride" Son: "Well, thank you, I guess"
At this point, I think I would have walked home before I would have asked either one of them to do anything for me. I know I am bitter and hurt, but I cant help it. It seems like son is always going out of his way to please his dad...to the point of even asking me to find a ride home because he didnt want to put his dad out by having him follow him to bring my car to me. If this was me, son would of probably insisted on me droping his dads car off. This is just what I feel. Also, when son is home during race day he watches it in his room. He will NOT come downstairs and watch it with me. BUT, he will watch it with his dad and gf. I am just hurt today.
