Weird night. I invited my BF and H (who works with my H) over for dinner to thank them for being there for me the last couple months.
BF's H said he talked with H about possibly filing for D. Said he didn't have a problem with the D if that's what needs to happen, but does have a problem with H hanging out with OW. Said my friends saw the guys try to put the moves on me on the raft trip but knew it was the guy.. not me.
Can't stop myself from wondering tonight... does H think about me? Did he hear about the 'friend' and was there any reaction? Am I fooling myself - will H ever want to try again or am I being a fool?
It's strange talking to people that don't u/s DB'g... it seemed like everyone wants us to just move on, end the pain, find someone better...
But I just don't feel like that's what I should do. I think my H screwed up. But if the stupid A will just end (WHEN??!!) I think we could have a chance.
I feel semi-insane but it's the only thing keeping me going!
