K4D Rising #2

[K4D]

The AA meeting I went to was very interesting. It was an all mens meeting. They gave me a little red book. Everyone went around and told their story. They started out with the serenity prayer and ended it with the Lord's prayer. They read passages out of a big blue book which I think is the 12 step book. They also gave me a silver recovery coin. They welcomed me and everyone was real friendly and told me that this was the group to be part of. I told them it was harder being happy sober and they could all relate and said that this program teaches you how to do that. There were people in there worse off than me. It was quite an experience. They didn't say anything about the 90 days though. Afterwords I helped put away chairs so that someone could mop. Everyone was very very nice.

Tonite they are having a birthday celebration for someone that has been sober for a year asked me to come. The leader says he intends to get to know me much better.

So yes, I went to a meeting.

As far as favorite passages in the bible... I had been reading the 4 gospels and last nigth I spent time reading some chapters out of the book of Acts with the conversion of Saul and the works of the apostles using the Holy Spirit. I don't know if I have a favorite passage yet. There are a number of them.

CG, the answer to your question is obvious. Don't risk your life.

I hate the fact that I merely exist. That does bug me. I don't spend time with the girls to show their mom was a great dad I am. I do it because I enjoy them and I long to have my family with me.

And yes, by the way, I saw W's profile on meetup.com because I was trying to figure out what was going on tonite and she apparently joined some groups that I did and listed herself as a newly single mom. Say what you all want, but we are still married and separated. My profile says separated. But oh well.

What will I do this afternoon? I don't know.

Kevin

[K4D]

TRAIN WRECK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Big disagreement

Kevin

[K4D]

You all were right. The M is dead. She is gone. I had hoped she was taking a wait and see attitude. But no. Its dead. Dead and buried. Very buried. 6 feet under buried. Decaying.

Kevin

[ppenton]

I'm afraid to ask....what did you do and what did you expect?!?

[25yearsmlc]

After all these months and months of repeated "events" and "stuff"... I guess I'm torn between real concern for you, and annoyance that we even have to ask... but here goes...

WTH happened Kevin?

j-

[K4D]

I'm not going into the details. Its pointless. I will just say that she is going to refile and I am hiring a L this time. I already have one that I talked to. She will have to have me served. I will not sign a waiver of service this time. I am no longer taking any phone calls from her. I have a scheduled time to pick the kids up each Sunday between 6 and 7 PM. There will be no contact between us going forward. Thats my rule, not hers.

In the mean time, I am moving forward with my life. Whatever happens, happens. I'm not waiting around anymore to see what happens. I have things to do with my life and part of that life includes my kids. I am going to figure out what I want to do with myself and start doing it for me. This is ridiculous.

It is in God's hands. If it is his will, he will make it work. If it is not, then he won't.

I did figure out where I want to live when this lease is up in December. I know where I am going to go to church for me and the kids and I don't care how much W is against it. Not my concern. Unless there is a real true emergency, I won't be calling her back. I'm focusing on my AA and C and getting my career going forward.

Kevin

[Puppy Dog Tails]

I'm sorry, Kevin. Please let us know how we can help.

My prayers for you and your kids tonite,

Puppy

[ppenton]

Here's hoping you follow thru with your plans and will be in my prayers. Good luck!

[25yearsmlc]

Ditto that - and Amen!

Give it over to God and this time, let HIM keep it. You will be alright. God does have a plan.
j-

[antlers]

What he said, and he said, and she said. Leave it at the foot of the Cross...leave it there...and don't pick it back up. Give it to Him. And leave it with Him.