confused.....want to do something.....

[MsMelancoly]

Hi orchid1, Don't let your fears overtake you. Many of us have the same ones. I've thought of those myself. One issue, one mountain to climb at a time. I'm sure you will do fine, get that PMA back in your head!!!

I find it strange that your H wants a D, so he isn't responsible for you. Well .... yes & no. You can still "Feel" responsible for someone after D, just like you can still love someone after D. Many WAS nix their responsibility (or some of it) as soon as they walk out the door. My xh did that 2 years ago when he left.

The D was ok. I had much time to adjust to the D issue. We had worked on it together & thus ended up spending more time together, that wasn't all that bad. I tried to make it as "fun" as possible. My thing was to show him, we could work on uncomfortable issues together. So I was ready for D or not to D. After D, my xh said your right, M is just a piece of paper. Then he told me he loved me & would always love me (hadn't said that since he left, but I knew he did). We hugged & kissed a few times, chatted a bit & before both of us went to work. Strange thing is, we've seen each other more since after D. Don't know, I still love him. Am happy with my life though.

Looking at things with another POV, your H does care, cuz, maybe he's giving you the push you need to get on your feet. (Tis a cruel way though).

Stay strong!!!!