Thank you so much MsMelancoly,

I really needed some input about this. I feel somewhat the same way, like just taking over. But, its scary. How did you feel about H after the D day? I am afraid I am going to hate him after that......

I expressed this to him and he said he totally understands that and if by next April, I don't have it in my heart to love him and be with him, it will be his loss. He says its scary to him, but, he can't seem to stop feeling this "responsibility" for me. And D is the only concrete way for him to get this "break".

A part of me is just so sick of all of this. Its an immature approach to a crisis situation.

A part of me would like a new start........but, you cannot escape your past, you know what I mean? At some point, this is going to come up and we will have to go thru some crazy counselling or something to build any sort of trust.

Thanks for your response and hope you are doing well.


Me: 35 , H - 38
M: 3.5 yrs
R: 8 yrs
Separated: 4/28/09
Divorced: 9/11/09