Just when you think you are strong..... Big backslide yesterday. H has been coming over alot...hanging around. Napping here and talking to me all the time. Calling even just to say hi. Then yesterday he came to pick up the kids...tried to ML AGAIN and this time I was pissed. I said to him that I wouldn't have sex with him and I needed more from him than just sex. This immediately made him stop trying...which is good, but later he told the girls to get their stuff and bring nice things cause they might drive up to our hometown to go to a party for our mutual friends. This upset me really badly becasue I was invited and turned down the invite since it wasn't my weekend and didn't wanna go without the girls. He could tell I was upset...and the waterworks started. He started in on me moving and basically reminded me that he was giving me more $$ now than what I am entitled to. It felt like a threat. Although he said he was trying to be fair and make us both as comfortable as possible. I really thought things were turning around...I told him that I still didn't understand why we were separated in the first place...and he said he didn't wanna hash that out again. He said he didn't mean to upset me and he was sorry. Then he called later that night just to check on me and see if I was ok. WHATEVER!!! I didn't exactly bring up R talk, but it just happened...it flowed out along with my pitiful tears. Seriously, what is his DEAL!!?? Does he just want to be the biggest cake eater ever? I am so glad I have been able to turn him down. That is easier and easier. But really, it seems as though he has no intention to come back...even though we are getting along better than ever...he is hanging around us all the time...and even telling me he is sorry for leaving. I am so confused. I just want to tell him that I HATE HIM!!!!! But I wont. the rollercoaster continues...
