Take a pillow and scream, hit and yell into it. You will feel better. You have to let all that out. Once you release it from all inside..it will ease your rage.
I feel your pain. You feel betrayed and clueless to what is happening. But you were meant to find out NOW for a reason. Now not only H , but you have to figure out how you can deal with this.
I have followed your thread for a looong time. You are strong. You can bear this pain. And when he is ready, You will have your answers.
And honestly, I am just saying what I am thinking right now. I have no idea HOW I would handle it either.
