WAS seeing reality?

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Orange, Yes, I got an attorny the day after she served the papers to me(with her mother present)! At first she thought I would just go with the program and make it easy on her. She wanted to mediate but she wanted me to agree to an every other weekend plus one evernight visit type of child visitation schedule. She got the hint pretty quick that I would NOT agree to that.
She would get angry at me for even wanting the kids half time because she knew that she would have to pay CS. Now when it is mentioned she seems to accept it. We actually talked again two nights ago for 2.5 hours! I told her that I was going to see my lawyer the next day. I think I am at a point where I might be able to completely detach from her for my own good.

She is a defenite type "A" personality and I am the artist type. We both sucked at talking about issues while we were living together(like an idiot, I moved out at her request.) When she dropped the bomb on me it was a huge suprise. We never fought about things, I never was mean to her, she always took great care of me. We were best friends. Now she tells me that she spent too much of her life trying to make other people happy and that she lost herself. She was crying on the phone the other night about the conversations that we have on a friendly level. She said that it reminds her of when we were in college and highschool before we were dating. "That is comfort to me." are her exact words. It is soo sad to me that she could feel so close to me now than she has in the last 3 or 4 years:( It is also very sad that even though she feels that connection she feels that we can't work out or marriage.