WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 10

[confusedinpa]

I don't know why I even bother sometimes as it puts puts such emotional stress on the boys (namely my 7 year old).

It was bugging me that my wife hadn't talked to the boys in a while (I had them since Tues nite) so I decided to have them call her tonite to say goodnite. She had said in the past that the parent with the kids should be the one to call the other to say goodnite. She had done that most of the time when she had the kids and when she doesn't call by their bed time, I call to say goodnite. I told her that she is always welcome to call, but when I had asked the boys if they want to call her, they often say no as it hurts them when she doesn't answer.

So, since she hadn't talked to the kids in a couple of days, I told my boys we're going to call mommy to say goodnite tonite. They noticed it wasn't a request so they came to the speaker phone as it rang. It killed me when I saw the look on my boys face when they heard it went to voice mail. I just told them both to say goodnite, which they did and I hung up.

My 7 year old held back his tears while my 3 year old kept asking "What happened? Why didn't she answer? She'll call back tonite so its ok". My 7 year old told my 3 year old "No, this was her choice." My 3 year old asked "To not answer?" My 7 year old responded "No. Leaving" It really hurt me to hear that exchange.

I gave them both hugs and kisses and said that they did a great job leaving a message as we got ready to read books before bed time.

Needless to say, she never called back tonite. Both of the boys just went to bed. I knew it was really bugging my 7 year old.

I really don't know why I am fighting for this as she seems so checked out of this marriage.

I know I need to keep fighting for my boys and I do want us back together.

This really s*cks!