I don't post much as I feel somewhat hypocritical as I am not trying to save my marriage. Mine is over and I am just awaiting the funeral (STBX filing). I do however read and learn from everyone on this board. Your situation and life story have me transfixed. I am able through your words to feel your emotions and am on this rollercoaster ride with you. I can't put into words, myself how very sorry I am that your life for the moment is so painful. It is so very cliché to say that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but it has some truth in it. You are becoming. You are growing. None of these things are easy and you are embracing the pain that is necessary to fulfill your destiny and become the SP you are meant to be. Whether your wife ever appreciates it, please know that your children will always have it in their heart and for those of us that you have so kindly allowed to witness your transformation, we have grown and learned by your example. I have such warm thoughts for you and wish you so much peace in that wounded heart of yours. Breathe. In and Out. Life is good!
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."
