I can really relate to what you are saying about H not fighting for us. It really is so unlike him.
I felt like you were saying the exact ideas that are in my mind. I really feel that I will be ok without him.....but still hoping for his return one day...whole and in a different more proactive state of mind.
Sounds like you are in such a good place. I am so happy to see this. I wanted to stop by ur blog and just see how you were...for the past 7 days, I have been very self consumed. Also, I wanted to say thank you again for supporting me this past week esp.
I am worried but otherwise in a very good PMA. I wish you a great weekend.