Thanks for posting and your encouraging words. I have been out and about and am trying to make the most of the few warm and nice summer days.
I have not been posting a lot lately since I am trying to get back into the "normal" life again. It seems to make me more depressed when I come to the BB and read about all the misery everybody is going through. It keeps reminding me what I went through and I really ought to leave it all behind me now. I have been here for over 3 years and soon it will be four years since my XH left. My wounds are healing a bit but I will always have some very deep scars! After all this time I still cannot listen to quite a lot of songs without getting teary eyes.
I keep thinking that it must be so much easier for XH not to think about me because nothing reminds him of me. It would be so much better if I could sell everything and move away, but I just cannot afford to do it, and apart from that I love the area I live in. I am quite alright if I go out or if I am in company even at home, but as soon as I am alone all the memories keep flooding back.
XH wrote again an angry e-mail about the money telling me I have a cheek to ask him to stop writing about it. Although I thought of writing what Snodderly suggested I won't do it because it will just infuriate him. So I went dark instead.
Lately I had a good time with going out to different cultural events and meeting friends.
Hi Snodderly,
I hope you are well and that the storms passed without leaving any damage. We have had lots of heavy down pours recently and I just hope that the one we are having now won't result in any floods. I don't think I have ever experienced a down pour as heavy as the one which is raging at the moment. It is as if somebody put a hose over the house or opened the floodgates!
