Journalling.......

Well, I have had an interesting 24hrs since dropping my H off at the airport. Last night I just got busy getting things organized and trying to get ready for today's meetings. I did think about calling H once(I think I wrote on the blog) but decided against it. He is looking for separation from me.....that means not showing I care when he does not ask for it.

But, he did call and I missed his call and didn't somehow see his message until 1pm today. I got busy so did not even listen to the message before 4pm. He called 4 times!!!! and left 2 messages today! HA! IS IT EVIL TO FEEL SOME SORT OF SATISFACTION AT THIS??????

Anyways, I did call back and he said "OMG, I thought something happened to you on your way back from the airport."

He was wondering about my day today and wanted to hear about it...and I told me some of my day and then said hope he had a good evening and hung up. He is a really funny man.

I have so much to do right now and so I am really glad about that. It keeps my focus on me!

Other than that, I have a dinner with co-workers tomorrow night and lots of things to finish by monday!

I am still mulling over what to do about the D papers. There is a large part of me that thinks I am going to have to go ahead with this if we are going to have a chance. It is just a piece of paper and there are no real assests to divide.

The problem is, I am not sure how I will FEEL after this.

Its a conundrum for sure.


Me: 35 , H - 38
M: 3.5 yrs
R: 8 yrs
Separated: 4/28/09
Divorced: 9/11/09