he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

so i feel like i gained some confidence this afternoon.

i kept to myself, wasnt cold, but didnt go out of my way.

he kept coming in to where i was, i was nice, but kept to what i was doing.

and then he came to tell me he was leaving, he likes to do that for my reaction, or to get intimate contact with me, so this time when he said he was leaving, i was like, ok...and kept to what i was doing.

it felt good, i have to say.

he kept lingering, i must have thrown him off, he kept coming back into our room, where i was.

and again, said, ok, im going, and i said again,,,ok...

maybe i needed this boost in confidence, maybe i needed to feel like i didnt fall for it, didnt give in, to put me kinda in control on my emotions.

not sure if im making sense.