h is here, and i have to say, im tired of the knots in my stomach.
im tired of him being all nice and all over me for weeks and then switching completely off towards me.
he seems miserable and is acting miserable.
i do not like miserable. im a naturally bubbly person, i dont do miserable.
i last spoke to him on tuesday, which is weird to not talk since then, but i did not want to initiate calling or texting.
he told me he would come this afternoon.
i said i have plans during the day and would be home about 3 or after.
sure enough my cell rings at 2:50, calling me from my house, asking when i will be home.
im glad i wasnt home waiting for him. im glad he had to pick up the phone to wonder where i am.
im glad if he was annoyed that we werent here when he felt like being early.
i hate that things are so weird between us, but i know he made it this way.
i am always consistent with my feelings, always consistent with the way i treat him.
he did this.
me: 31 H:29 Son:5 m:8 years in november t:10 years first bomb: 10/06 moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08 ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06 d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08 moved home:3/09 out again 5/09
