I'm very sorry to see you hurt this way, as I realize this is devastating. Please understand you are not alone, we are all here for you, and we feel your pain. Yes, you've been lied to, yes, you've been betrayed, yes, this a very rude awakening, and more the reason that you now know you need to protection yourself and start taking care of you and your family.
On one hand, this ow may be lying herself. If she is all that you say, this child may not be your H's. He will have to make the effort to prove this himself, and then protect himself. This is his doing not yours. This has no bearing on the person you are, the marriage you once had, or the life you lead... it's all about him, and we all know this.
On the other hand, if this is his child, you need to do everything in your being to protect yourself and your family. Starting with you, physically. Have yourself checked out for anything that could have been given to you. Most of us have been through this,and although it isn't pleasant, it is necessary. Then, you need to contact an attorney in order to protect your rights and your financial well being.
Next, honey, you have to drop the rope, let him go and allow him to deal with all that he has done. He's not being honest with you... and you deserve honesty! You are much more than this, you are worth more than this man can give you at this time. Right now, the marriage before you isn't worth standing for... so let it go, stop allowing this situation from dragging you down to levels that are destroying you. Right now, he is dragging you down, and he isn't interested in saving you, he will not give back to you, all that you deserve. You can't save him, you can't help him, he needs to learn to be strong enough to help himself, and you can't do this for him.
You can continue to stand for marriage, but a marriage you deserve, and this isn't it right now. Show the love you have by honoring yourself, taking care of yourself, and live as an example of strength, honesty, and all that you believe in, and until the day he can stand up straight in your shadow, pay him little mind, for you deserve a man who can be whole, honest, and responsible with and for himself.
Drop the rope, close the door, and love yourself.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
