Will be carefull with my heart, no rushing into anything, definitely. One thing about this whole mess is it is helping me refine what I realize I need in a future R., whether it is with H. or anyone else. Honesty, intimacy, willingness to fight for me and the R. if things get tough...among others.
I've spent a lot of time dismayed to realize that H. would not fight for us. It was so unlike him. We know he is going through his own process right now. But I also realized that he was plain old tired of fighting in general, and probably genuniely is not sure that M. would ever be fullfilling for either of us. Don't agree with his choices, but fair enough. We both want to be happy and I hope are taking the time to learn how to be so. I hope it brings it him back to me someday, whole and ready. If not, I will still be ok.
Thank you for looking out for me. I'm not used being ok with that, like to be the care taker , but feel that I can accept that from you (with thanks!) because you are so genuine and insightful.
Regarding weekends-I work every 3rd. But my sister and a close friend live near by, so I am enjoying them, along with my GAL in general.
Will mosey over to your board and see how you are doing soon. Take care of you (and your health!) :-) TD
Me 30 H 33 together:10 years married:5 years Separated: 1/23/09 living apart 5 mos and counting "when you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on"-FDR
