Know that nothing has really changed. He is still the same person, and so are you.
I think you need to ponder on the last 4 words.
I will first say that you have feelings for this man still because at one time he did give you the love that you needed, and IMHO, this man is not the man you M. he is messed up and seems to be going down further and further. Of course you hurt more after he spends more time with you. that would only make sense.
another thing, you are still looking for people to give you your self worth. you will never be happy if you continue this, because your self worth comes from God. You are beautifully and wonderfully made, and you must believe this. You are so important and so special. if you don't believe, you will never feel good enough because we are all sinners and we will all be hurt by those we love because no one in this world is perfect.
So continue healing yourself by loving yourself and the creation God made. everything about you is a gift and very precious.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
