d-day coming soon - help !

[misshim]

Thursday night didn't go well with H, we were texting back and forth. He told me he couldn't wait until monday (divorce date) boy that sure hurt me !!. I told him I'm sorry our marriage meant nothing to you. I wished him luck with his new future. I think he's pimping (as they say, I'm still not sure what it means)

I did ask him then why did he want to come over and "stay" and pray and put our daughter to bed. He said because he had nothing else to do and he thought he was just being nice and helping me out. There was alot more he said but I'm too hurt and stressed to type it out.

I admit I give in, bring the divorce on. We never could really talk about any issues in our marriage, and this seperation instilled it.

This might be my last post here. The weekend is dial up connection which doesn't work well. Monday is the divorce or pre-trial date and I'm off work monday and tuesday.

I'll check back maybe Wednesday with status.

Thank you all for your advice. I tried to save my marriage but I know I can't compete with his stripper friends. He has been seen in another small town with girls surrounding him and he's handing out cards of some sort. Who knows what is going on. He has a 2 seater cargo van and he wants to put 2 rows of bench seating in there. I thought that he might be driving his "girls" around. I just told him that's a good idea, nothing more. I care but I don't.

He's 37 years old going on 15 years old and I'm tired of being his mom and tired of his hurt. I gain stength with all of you here and praying.

I haven't been here long posting but I have sure learned alot.

Thanks to all !! (especially Grace)