Another weekend started for me. Did some shopping after work (dont like that, remember I had to go a 12 step programm for my shopping addiction, need a refresher, I will look at my bank statements, that should do it, LOL), I have apt for my hair tomorrow, having some highlights and then a party tomorrow night at the most expensive place in Athens. I asked H if he wanted to come and he said "he doesnt feel like it". I am sure it is shame and guilt towards my friends from work that all know what has happened over the last couple of years (caution to early DBers :I overdid the exposure trick 2 years ago and this is a side effect).
Still struggling on an everyday basis to just turn the page and feel FREE again. My son had a melt down last night enough to make me feel guilty. What a draining emotional rollercoaster!!! I am looking at this form a new point of view: I dont have to "wait" till my life starts again with or without him. This IS my life and I have to do what to takes to make it a good one. Lately I feel sorry for him. Things are simple and he only needs to open his eyes because he is loosing me faster than he thinks. He is taking the risk, not sure he realises it.
Whatever... Good things are bound to happen. Sooner or later. I think later is no longer an option. It has become sooner... K
