Fire's burning out...just smoldering

[blindsided1]

"Boy, she has him on a leash."

Part of me wants to ask the question.. did he feel like that before?

Yes, I do believe that he felt that way with me, also. However, I didn't feel the need to contact him every 5 min to make sure he was where he said he would be.

He treats you that way because all the women in his life.. bend to his will. By the way.. she (MIL) has been a big part of it.

This is very true. I don't know why we all bend to his will, exactly. It's not like we get anything from it. Maybe it's because we fear what we would get if we don't bend to his will. This makes much more sense. If he is unhappy...he makes EVERYONE unhappy.

"But, it's hard to forgive someone who constantly calls me names and treats me so badly."

No it is not. You do it all the time. It's that heart of yours. One day.. you are gonna forgive him.. and draw a line in the sand. That is what I hope for. Even if I am not posting.

That darn heart of mine....gets me in sticky situations. I am going to forgive him. The more I detach from him, the more I forgive him. I feel as though I am finally drawing the line. Although, I often feel as though I'm using an erasermate to do so.

I miss your posts, FG