Andabelle.. you are right and well remembered! I did actually say it on purpose, in a mysterious voice, to judge his reaction "Well.. others liked my bed..." but I put him out of his misery! I am considering telling him about the piscean though, I think I will eventually tell him someone else wanted to marry me, yes.
Hi T!.. I think you are right. He keeps wanting to make everything ok and has been super accommodating about the new plan to move to his place, offering to take furniture there to the tip, to fit all of mine/ours in, to paint rooms etc. He does seem to want to make it right, perhaps his way of reassuring me, yes.
Thanks for saying I have courage.. it is hard, I think my resentments are surfacing. I dont understand how he managed to spend 8 months with her (7? 6 at best?) and take her on a weeks skiing holiday with his brother and SIL for Christmas. It sort of seems too surreal. His Mum is here for the weekend, she has made NO reference to us being together.. only mentioned me twice in answer to him telling her something. She hasnt asked him about his depression though either, she's pretty self involved.
I really love him, but sometimes I wonder if we will be ok or not, or if too much hurt and separation occurred. I think we are faring pretty well so far, considering. I told him how hard it was when I found out abuot Helen, how I cried for 3 weeks. He got very teary.. I said, you didnt even tell me yourself, why not? He said, I couldnt..I felt so guilty and ashamed. Yep, the two pinnacles of the WAS, guilt and shame!!
