Everything about "us" is now being dissected and shed in the worst light and people of importance to H are validating his hypothesis to the extent that I think I have to just get out of the way and let him live with his version of the story. I thought I had made peace with this already. But, the attraction between us and the attention has given me a sense that he was lightening up on that.
I hurt right now more than I have in a long time. Feeling so small. But, I will start anew tomorrow.
