GH31 - Dilemma with my pregnant wife

[GH31]

If my wife weren't pregnant I would have thrown her to the kerb. To me she is the embodiment of evil, selfishness and everything vile. She is not deserving of the title of "wife" and has no conscience or moral compass whatsoever. It hurts to say this. Her family know what she got up to last week and it doesn't seem to faze her at all that they know.

The thought processes that have enabled her to do what she's done are not going to be undone in a matter of days, and she would have to do the work - and I scarcely think she has it in her to do it.

I feel a sense of responsibility to her because of the baby and I am against termination on principal. I am really sickened that W has even entertained the notion of doing that so that she can go to OM, even though OM has said he "couldn't live with it".

Last night W was putting pictures from the baptism last week away in the photo album and she didn't think twice about including the ones of me in there. My picture with her sister and our goddaughter went in. So weird.

I realise that my thinking is really messed up right now due to the trauma. Please bear with me.