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[Faith2010]

Today appears to be a repeat of yesterday. I feel so much anger towards H. I am keeping it in check around him but it is hard as he!!.

When H left to pick up dinner, he says "Don't you have money for me? I saw your stash. Can't you give me $20 from that? Is that your down the road money?" I did not respond to him, but just walked away.

I have a small (very small) amount of money I had been keeping in a card in my nightstand drawer. I started putting a little away when all this began. Yesterday I was adding to it when H walked in the room. I put it away (in an envelope with a card, in a magazine under a pile of magazines in my drawer. I thought he saw it cause it looked like the money was moved and he just confirmed it today. Why is H looking through MY stuff? He's the one cheating and he checks on me? I am aware of the cash he has stashed away, quite a bit more than me that he gets from his 2nd job, under the table. I haven't said a word nor will I let on that I know about it.

H found out from S that my friend is driving with us tomorrow. H asked me if she was staying at my parents. I said no, I was not going there. After much persistence I told H I was going to my friend's house for the weekend. H said "oh, you lied to me." I said no, I did not. He said yes you did, you said you were going to my parents. I then repeated what I originally told him and he got that d@mn smirk on his face saying, "Oh, you just weren't going to tell me." and sauntered away. I said nothing, again.

Is this immature behavior normal? Honestly, how do you guys live with a MLC spouse?

Thank God tomorrow is Friday and I am out of here for the weekend. I need to gain a lot of peacefulness and patience while I am away.