Hey Lisa! I've been having tons of fun catching up on your thread!
That is great about CEO. Did I tell you I have slowly been dating my own CEO? Not my own work CEO, but a man who is the Owner/CEO of his own company. I probably haven't mentioned him b/c we see each other RARELY--every couple months. He'll call, we'll hang out and then no word for weeks and weeks. It may be a little shady, so I don't hold much weight on it...besides the fact that he is GORGEOUS and RICH!
Nothing else is really new with me. H & I agreed on getting divorced. It's been hanging over my head for months now. I've been wantching to talk to him about it, but just couldn't bring it up. Then, he went on vacation with The Horse (he SWEARS that he isn't with her--ugh! Why lie?!) and that was the kick in the ass for me to bring it up to him. So, he came over afer his vacation and I told him my feelings and we agreed on divorce. It sucked. My cousin is getting the paperwork all together for me. I'll keep you up to date.
Be Well! Beth
H & I, both 32, together since 18. *M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08 * Agreed to D 6/09...very hard *D 8/10 * At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF
I'm sorry it's been so long since I've posted to you. Thank you for all your help when I was in a tizzy over what to do while I was in new york city. I'm so sorry to hear about your friend.
I am so proud to hear that your experiment WORKED. that is amazing!!!!!!!! Hip, hip, hooray!!!!!
What do you think the dream means? Do you think maybe subconsciously you want them both? What do you think the bags mean? Most importantly, how did the dream make you feel?
I like hearing about you and the CEO drinking tea in his garden. It sounds idyllic! I also like the fact that even though he's a CEO and probably works a bazillion hours every day he still creates interesting projects in his life like training roses and building ponds!
It's good to "see" you! You sound really strong. I'm sad to hear that your H is still lying to you....I want to kick him... COME ON, MAN!!! It sucks that you are getting a divorce, but I'm really proud of you for being proactive and choosing what you want. What do you feel?
Lovely to chat to you the other night, although it ended up being a bit brief hey.. we must do it again sometime! How did it go with seeing H ? I think you said he had asked ot meet up with you after a long convo about.. the weather! Hugs Al xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
Beth- you're dating your CEO? Great news even though it does sound a little on and off?! Congratulations, and I'm super JEALOUS! Bad news about the D though, but it sounds like the right thing considering how H has been behaving. How are you feeling about it?
T- I don't know what my dreams meant. What do you think? I think the fact that H had two bags might mean I was worried that he might want to move back home. I guess I felt happy in a way that H might want to come home, but I also felt stressed in the dreams where I was seeing CEO and H wanted to come home. I've been trying not to dwell on the dreams too much- luckily normal service has resumed and H hasn't appeared in my dreams again since that week.
Mish, T, Handsome- soap monsters are pretty easy to make. Basically take some hard bar soap. Cut a piece and microwave it on a plate. The soap will grow to large proportions and the texture change, but it's still soap and can be used in the bath. It's probably not suitable for teenagers but younger children like it. Watch out for the strong soap smell though. Also fun is to create plasma balls in the microwave with grapes- very good for a teenage boy!
Al- thanks for remembering that I was seeing H. I did see him on Thursday evening. As usual we had a great time together- lots of laughing, chatting. It was easy and comfortable. I flirted with him a bit which was funny not least for the slightly surprised look on his face when I started doing it. He looked great- really fabulous and better than he has since he left. He said he's been exercising a lot and it really shows- he's filled out nicely.
At the end of the evening we hugged and kissed each other on the cheek. He then took my hand and stood there holding it for a while. Same old, same old. He didn't say anything and he's still seeing the aubergine. I can't see it changing, and I can't see him coming home. I was pretty angry with him afterwards and the next day but I think that's good in a way because really whatever the reason for leaving he's behaved in a terribly confusing way and I see that as pretty unreasonable. I mean, who leaves their wife because she cooked too many vegetables and had the wrong type of hair? And if that wasn't the reason, at least have the decency to tell her why you left.
Anyway, rant over. I sent the D papers off today... so seeing H helped spur me into some action. I feel OK about it. BFF said we should go out and celebrate that I did it, totally misunderstanding the situation. I'm OK about it but I don't think it's a reason for a party- I'm writing that because I know you guys will understand what I mean!
CEO is being still charming. Devastatingly so. He must have missed me last week when I was on holiday because when we finally spoke he was so happy to hear from me, so pleased I was OK and sweetly said it was nice to speak to me at the end of the conversation. He even offered me some roses for my garden (making me curse myself for not living somewhere with a garden so I could accept the gift). Today he remembered the conversation and even offered to buy me more roses if I didn't like the pink of the ones he already has.
We also had a conversation about going on holiday. I get the impression that there may be an element of going together in the conversation but I can't be sure over the phone.... I tentatively mooted that it might not be the best thing for me to end up on the same holiday as him by accident but I couldn't read his reaction well. We're going to see each other on Wednesday so I'll raise it again then and see what happens- maybe I'll even say that we should go on holiday together seeing as everyone thinks we're married anyway (did I post that a person from Eastenders saw us having coffee and assumed we were together?). Or maybe I could tell him that what would make me really happy (or happier than gifts of rose bushes) would be going out for a drink and dinner together and see what he says. The bizarre world of OD and CEO.....
In other news I seem to have been elected to secretary of my choir, which is pretty funny considering I didn't volunteer for it. I don't mind, but being a bit of a megalomanic I'd rather be chairperson than secretary. Maybe I'll manouevre myself into doing that instead. They're a funny lot- I'm pretty sure they won't know what hit them when they have their first meeting with me there as they really don't know me very well. I can't wait to surprise them!
I've also been working on my yoga- great news is that my crow is getting much better. The bad news is that doing so much yoga has uncovered some (hate to even say the word) cellulite on my thigh. I'm torn between carrying on with the exercising to try and get rid of it, or reverting to pie- and chocolate eating to cover it up again! Decisions decisions!
LOL Julia! It was Janine Butcher. She looks much less evil in real life and was really sweet and charming. She saw CEO and I haveing coffee together and then we were later both in the underwear shop round the corner and ended up having a conversation while trying things on. It was really weird and funny!
