Just journaling/venting now - the further I detach and the more I realize that this is not all personally directed at me, I am able to know that as horrible as all the lies and deceit are that are directed my way, it is liberating to know that he also has to be lying to others and not just me.
A couple of weeks ago I almost laughed out loud and actually had to bite my tongue hard when I heard him getting after D5 because he thought she wasn't telling him the truth about something. If that isn't the pot calling the kettle black! (the one "positive" in that case is he was actually acting like a "real" father then, something slowly coming back out of him after he decided he didn't really want those responsibilities a few months ago).
