Don't send that e-mail. At the very least, it's pursuing. Once again, it's all about YOUR feelings, YOUR neediness, YOUR issues. She is not interested in you, except as the father of her children.
Why does everyone see it but you?
And I'm sure you'll send it anyway, and then post and moan and groan about how devastated you are, and how hard this is, etc.
CG - do/did you have court today? Sorry for the hijack.