Newbie (again)

[dday101798]

Thanks,

I want to get out of this without the cost of having to shed crutches, and speaking of costs, it's just not in the budget anyway.

I just don't understand what triggered this or why I even feel this way in the first place at all. I should be happy, I'm free to do what I want, when I want and with whomever I want and wake up each and everyday knowing I no longer have a lying, manipulative, disease laiden tramp for a "spouse" to deal with at some point of the day.

Broke is one thing, that's nothing new, been there done that, story of my life except once I got ahead of things and actually had money, well, I was married, had a nice house and 2 wonderful kids. Well damn, what do I have now?

I'm sorry, meds at this point as always, not an option. I strongly believe they just mask the problems at hand and push them off to a later date with yet more problems on the plate.

I'm also the type of person who doesn't go to the doctor unless I'm dying, so if my pounding chest and head is an indication that a trip to the ER is in the making, so be it, then and there I will see a doctor.