You sound like the exact same place I have been in many many many many times. It's not pretty, not fun, and NOT productive!
I too am completely broke. Don't make enough to pay my bills, got stuck with every debt xh and I ever racked up since he's unemployed and get no CS...again, since he's a complete waste of space. Oops, did I say that?
Ramen is awesome stuff! Add a bag of frozen asian style veggies and it's even better. Makes it go further too. Spaghetti, chili, hot dogs, Hamburger Helper, and mac and cheese. All 15 cents a metric ton! We live on those.
I understand not 'believing' in drugs. I didn't either. I thought they would turn me into a zombie. The panic attacks were so bad though that I couldn't breathe or see and would shake uncontrollably from head to toe. NOT GOOD! Xanax is marvelous stuff for this. Ad's are meant to take off the edge and average out your emotions. If it made you 'dumb' then it was the wrong dosage or the wrong meds entirely for you. If it gets too bad, go to your county health clinic. Do something to save yourself. Don't let it get to the dangerous point of contemplating suicide.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
