Will wait until I see her again after work tomorrow. Actually, I will wait until after the boys go to bed. I have to say something, it's eating me up. I just need the strength to be prepared for whatever the answer will be. I hate this situation. I hate everything about this. It is changing my personality, affecting my relationships with my friends and family, and slowly affecting my love for my wife, my best friend. I still love her with my whole heart, but she has wounded me deeply. Sometimes I wonder what I am fighting for. My heart used to leap when I heard her car pull in the driveway after work, now it sinks. I am not ready for this. I feel at this point I need a miracle, but it doesn't come. The success stories I read here only depress me because they are not my story. Please, whoever reads this, I am just venting. This sight is like a journal. It feels good to put down how I feel, knowing that those who read it have similar feelings.
Me-40 W-41 Together-10 M-8 S-6 S-4 Bomb 5/08 Bomb 10/08 Thought things were better, was wrong. Still living together Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.
