Exactly. But I do believe this: If it's possible for his actions to get into your kitchen and start a fire, it's even MORE possible for you to take control of your own kitchen and extinguish that fire and start doing your own cookin'! Cook something you like, you want to eat. Be your own freakin' gourmet chef! I have lots of support from people here and that's how I got here. Of course I love my H. Of course I want to save my marriage, but I'm at a point where I'm very ready to live life without him. I'm now concentrating on me. I'm concentrating on my son after that. Then work. I am taking all the steps I need to take to say in the future, should my marriage end in D: "I fought it to the end and did everything to save it." And believe me, these last few weeks and esp. days, I've had people I've met here and one very good girlfriend in town with me, tell me "You've come this far. Why quit now? See it through." Because I wanted to end it, once and for all since I'm now at a point where I could walk away. BUT they are right. I have come this far. I have grown this much and I have to see this through to the end no matter what that may be, for me. Not H. For me. I'm worth soooooo much there isn't even a number to place on that value it's so exponential. No one has to be arrogant. We have to be proud of ourselves and know what we are worth. Stop living in fear. Start living in the now and for you.
