Alright sit down while you read this. Understand EVERYONE here is here to help you and each other and themselves. Now, here we go. GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR A$$. Now. You have to stop this. Have you read the last resort technique and the last last resort technique? If no, then READ IT. I think it's time for you to take control of the situation. You need to let H know you are serious and ready to do business. At this point, he's got complete control. It's not a game to him to not call you one day. It's nothing off of his nose. He is well aware he can come home at any time and you'll be there. Maybe with an attitude, but you'll be there. So, do a 180. Let him know you are NOT waiting for him. Start to take steps to separate your life. Make it clear to him that you making a list of things you want for you and for your son so that you can make a life WITHOUT HIM.. Here's how I see it: Your H right now has picked a psychotic woman over you. This woman has annoyed and harassed you. He still picks crazy, over you? Screw him and screw that. SHUT HIM OUT. You really need to embrace the cliche: If you love something let it go, if it comes back to you...... But something else for you to consider.....maybe you're too good for him. Maybe you deserve better. Maybe it's time to let this guy know what he's doing exactly and how badly he's about to screw up his life.....not yours, not S's, just his. Do not look back at this time and think "God, why did I waste that time and energy on him?" You need to start thinking about you. You need to get pissed here. You need to stop letting him have this control over you. Only YOU control you. You are making this choice....this choice to sit at home and be sick and sad. You are making this choice to give him control. You are making this choice to let this psycho polish lady in your head, in your kitchen and burn things. Kick them both out of your head and your life. Mdoodles, make a new choice here. You need to pick you and go freaking do it. You are not going to die. So why are you wasting your life, time and energy on any of this? He's not coming back to you in this kind of shape. It's not sexy. You think you're hiding it from him by being up beat around him......not a chance. He knows. Educate him on the new you. The strong you. The real you.
