how often do you see kids? there is no reason why you can't see them more often, you can take them out swimming and stuff.
Perhaps you didn't have a good C, the thing about the 2yrs is pretty serious and I wonder if you got to the bottom of it when you last tried. If she has resentment issues then at some degree it falls on you to reassure her and ask for forgiveness if it's something you did/didnt' do that hurt her.
At the point seh wont' have much meaningful things to say, you keep DBing and work on yourself, do try to see a C on your own to see how to handle things, it will help a lot I promise, though sometimes it's hard to find a good C. A good book about women and men is "men are from mars and woman are from venus" give that one a try, there are a lot of things we dont' know about each other when we marry.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.