he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

i would like to wake up without this pain in my heart.

i would like to have a night where i dont have a nightmare about the ow and/or him.

i hate this, i really do.

and i bet, that even if i choose to fully let go, i will still feel this way.

i didnt talk to h yesterday, and im glad. i get anxiety in the last week when i see him calling and/or actually speak to him.

today is the mets game, should be fun, i havent been to the new citifield yet this year. i hear the food is great and costs a fortune, hoping the parking isnt too bad, although that costs a fortune too. it should be crime what they charge to park a car.