Don't worry, I haven't fallen off the DB wagon. I was just asking aak to clarify what she meant since she said she could understand where my W was coming from. I know no one can really know, but I just add it to my little mental notes along with sandi's and Greek's so I know how to better understand and talk to my W.
I'm not letting it cloud my judgement though because I know how this roller coaster keeps changing at every turn. This helps me to determine what are "cheeseless" tunnels in my sitch. I definitely don't want to go back to where things were hostile between us. In fact, I think because of my DB efforts, we've gotten to where we are today. And I don't hang on my W's every action like I did before. I just note the positives like Coach says and avoid the negatives.
Oh and about the "awesomeness" comment, it was just a light-hearted remark that came from Kung Fu Panda. I figured aak might have appreciated that. Just trying to get my swagger back. Not for her, mind you, but myself. Kind of what robx pointed out.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.