K4D Rising #2

[K4D]

Well, let me at least clear one thing up. I never said my W told me she was going to have sex for her birthday. What I said was that she had dinner plans with a friend that is flying back in from out of town. The only friend she has that travels is OM. She had sex with him for his birthday. So my thinking was that he was probably going to return the favor. But she never once said anything about having sex with him.

I don't have anything to offer to her to make her want to come back. I don't have any boundaries that if I set would mean a of beans to her. She doesn't need me for anything. She doesn't love me. And she doesn't want me. I can set whatever boundaries I want. It isn't going to affect her one way or the other.

As far as the rest goes, I am so tired of being in limbo. I want to ask her so badly why she held off on the D and what her plan is. But I know that would be bad. I guess you all are right. Her actions just last week don't show a softening of the heart. She is out tonite with D7 and the 55 year old guy riding bikes. They are spending quite a bit of time together these days. I wonder if his W even knows. Eventually one thing can lead to another even with the age difference.

So yes, back to me. I stopped in at the church and prayed again. I came home and made dinner for myself. I baked a peice of chicken and had some ritz crackers. And I don't have didly to do tonite so maybe I will just read and pray some more. At least my AC works now.

I am still keeping faith. And yes, I will reread those things again. And I am thinking of going to an AA meeting on Friday night since I have D7 tonite.

Kevin