Have you been able to detach yet? If you read through my recent threads, I just figured it out. The only way I can describe it is to start treating H like he's your son. How would you treat a child? You would love them unconditionally & realize they would have to experience life on their own. You can tell a teenager until you're blue in the face all the things YOU learned in your life while growing up...but they won't listen. They need to learn on their own.
Once you get to that point, you can start enjoying your life again. I felt the same way as you before I figured it out. I kept thinking - I should be happy about my trip but I'll still have the same issues on my mind while I'm away. I started thinking the best vacation for me may just be going to the hospital & being put into a coma for a week so I wouldn't have to think about my sitch! Now I can do my own thing & have fun again. Stop thinking of it as a nightmare. Think of it as a journey. You are one one - H is on one. Hopefully both roads lead to the same place, but if they don't, you will be okay - better than okay - you will have worked on yourself to be the best you possible!
Me 36, Him 33 M 11yrs, T 15yrs S 8, D 7 ILYBINILWY - 1/09 H moves out 10/09 D to be final SOON I HOPE!
