Well, I think so many things can be true at once and it is so easy to feel paranoid and f*cked over given the circumstances and his erratic behavior.

I mean, he is still juvenile and irresponsible .

I first texted him back "LOL, you're kidding, right?"

And he answered, "About what?"

So I called to clarify.

It is good to go slow and have levity...I spent my morning feeling so thwarted and defensive. I need to look at that. AND, I don't want my sense of ok-ness to be that shake-able. I mean, I'm human but under the circumstances, I need to remember I am on my own and it will be a long road to R with him, if ever.

I'm learning a lot just watching myself.

Thanks Lucky.