am i stubborn, i dont even know what i am anymore.
i know i should let go and move on, that the coming home this time and the store opening and closing should be enough to show me its over now, that this cannot continue.
i know it will never work with us unless this ow is out of the picture completely.
and who knows if that is possible.
yet im still holding on. even when i think im making progress, in the back of my mind, i know i would take him back.
maybe thats ok. maybe we should move on, do our thing, and somehow know and accept we are moving on, but can keep the door slightly open for them.
i just dont know anymore.
everyone thinks im crazy, except my mother-in-law of course!
Hey M,
You are all over the map here.....
I'm thinkin that you should step back and remember what it is that YOU want out of this time....
Cause YOU get to use it too.....to find you....
Move on ?
Really ?
Is that what you want ?
There is a difference in moving on and moving forward, which is what you need to do.
Making progress ?
That is up to you to do...and you can only do that for you, not the Marriage.
You are your responsibility in this.....he is not
You should really lay down some firm boundries about the going back and forth......those are for YOU, not him.
Find a balance for you....
Are you crazy ?
Cause I'm thinkin that YOU are the only one who gets to make that decision.....
Get up, dust yourself off, and get back on that horse....
Go back and really read Trapt's post to you earlier.....the one about Michelle's page.....
