total quarter life mlc

[mdoodles]

am i stubborn, i dont even know what i am anymore.

i know i should let go and move on, that the coming home this time and the store opening and closing should be enough to show me its over now, that this cannot continue.

i know it will never work with us unless this ow is out of the picture completely.

and who knows if that is possible.

yet im still holding on. even when i think im making progress, in the back of my mind, i know i would take him back.

maybe thats ok. maybe we should move on, do our thing, and somehow know and accept we are moving on, but can keep the door slightly open for them.

i just dont know anymore.

everyone thinks im crazy, except my mother-in-law of course!