Newbie (again)

[dday101798]

The 'visitation' is alternating weekends and this weekend is my 'off-weekend'. I think what S12 was getting at was we used to always go out to dinner on Wednesday's and Wed. night was part of the temporary schedule. Unfortuantely this was not workable into the 'final' agreement as XW was supposed to be moving away. Now, it would appear that she isn't for the time being and as far as know isn't at work today either, must be nice to sit on your arse all day and just wait for the check in the mail (from me).

But either way, I can't afford to take them out any how.

As for the second job, I'm just looking to go into my degreed field of automotive, with everyone not buying new cars and just keeping their's up and running, I know I can land one easily. However, I have to renew my lisence prior to getting any applications in and I don't want to be commited to one right away with the holiday next week already being jumbled up.

We'll see

Otherwise, spent a good amount of time soul searching last night and this morning and my spirits are on the upswing an dI'm feeling better. After I balance my checkbook today I think I have enough left to just treat myself to dinner and that's it until next Friday. But it's something I need to do.

I also politely drove a wedge between myself and 'new person' expressing I am not ready for this and need to find answers within myself to a vast of questions and get certain aspects of myself under control and be stable for myself first before intertwining any one else in my mess.