total quarter life mlc

[mdoodles]

u cant let go or give up until u are truly ready to do so. u arent being cynical, u just arent ready to switch gears, even though u may like to be.

i would like to let go, but at the same time, i think of how the time when i did, and it didnt do anything.

my husband even said to me several months ago, where were u when i first left, i didnt see u fighting for me then.

and that sticks with me.

in truth, he doesnt deserve me. doesnt deserve me fighting for him, especially now, after him coming back, leaving his job, opening this business with our family money and now running back to her.

but i think he likes to feel wanted and needed, he likes me to fight for him.

everyone tells me he isnt worth it, that i have to stop.

and i get it, i think we all get it.

but we arent ready to stop. they tell me i will know when im done.

as for the ow, they will know when they are done too. hopefully it is before me.